It's been a week and a half since I formally committed to home schooling Caleb and I've told only a hand full of people.  Those who home school their children are obviously supportive.  And those who are presently making their own decisions over their first-born's education (weighing all the options) are excited for us.  However, my friends who are not "home educators" have not spoken a word of encouragement to me.  I've sent emails and even shared face to face with a couple, only to receive what I call "non-responses."  I guess they are lovingly practicing the old adage "if you don't have anything nice to say..."

The other challenge of this past week has stemmed from this response from others:  I have been afraid that Home Schooling my kids will remove me form the world too much for me to have any profound influence for the Gospel.  If people think I'm a "total nut-case of a "conservative," Christian who is trying to keep her kids in a bubble," then they will be more difficult to engage in relationship.  

That said, as I've prayed through these thoughts the past few days I've realized that the people God has allowed me to have the greatest influence with for His sake have been women who make their way into the church.  They are the seekers who are attracted to those who love God.  And I will not loose that sphere of influence.

Also, I've always felt that the main area of ministry God has for me is a speaker to women within the church.  I long to encourage women to grow in Christ; To grow in love towards their husbands and children; to pursue all the riches that are available to those who love God and live according to His purposes.    

And lastly, in general, I have been disgruntled these past few days.  I feel Spiritually attacked and wearied.  However, all this to say, none of my opposition has come from my "pupil!"  Not to say that Caleb will always want to do his studies, but today he is happy to have me as his teacher.